Can you tell me how i could crawl out of this depression minus medication?

Psychotherapy: "this depression" doesn't provide much information about what you are experiencing. Psychotherapy (talk therapy) has proven effectiveness for depression and will help you understand and address its cause(s), not just symptoms. For most depressed patients, the benefits of antidepressant medication are indistinguishable from placebo. Talk therapy is usually the best medicine. See a psychologist.