My np is refusing to schedule my csection & wants me to labor naturally 1st though she says its risky to my life since this will be my 3rd csection?

It sounds like you : Are genuinely concerned about this. Have you worked with this nurse practioner before? I can see why you would be concerned if you were told that you would be given a trial of labor but that there were significant risks. I can't tell you how to proceed. However, i think if it was me, i would speak with the nurse practioner about obtaining input from an obstetrician, i believe that input from a.