Feel like im pushing down harder into the ground. not sure but its affecting me bc it of pain and also pushing residue out of butt as well.

See your family doc: It sounds as if you're straining very hard on the toilet. You are also in pain. I think you should set up an appointment with your family doctor soon and he will likely or she will likely refer you to a gastroenterologist for a full lower G.I. Evaluation. You may simply be having constipation from your psychiatric medication. By all means do not stop your psychiatric medication. This should be a very treatable problem. Best wishes.