What should you do when you wanna kill yourself but you want to get better?

You listen to the: Part of you that wants to get better & you get help. If you have a plan that you may act on now then please be seen at the nearest emergency room or call 911 for help. If things are not so imminent then recommend that you involve your family physician. Seeing a psychologist for talking therapy should be at the top of your list. You may need psychiatric medications. Get help now. Take care.