S.a.d. starting already! i try stay active in my home but do sit a lot & take breaks watch tv, go nowhere. how i fix this! i'm miss out on kids/life?

Seek help: You don't want to fight that alone, please seek professional help, you might have done that before, but you still need it, control is within reach, good luck

Psychologist.: Depression in the context of seasonal affective disorder is terrible. Hurts both emotionally and physically. Counseling with a psychologist would be your best bet to find a lasting remedy. Medications can help in the short term, but are not an appropriate replacement for counseling. Good luck.