I kinda want to die because i've had insomnia/low testosterone/chronic stress and im 18 and it has stunted my growth and made me ugly. i wanna die so b?

Get help: Get help now. Call crisis line. Search out sleep specialist in your area. It makes me sound how many times I have heard this unfortunately and it can be reversed with improved sleep. Good luck.

See your doctor: It's great that you're reaching out. Now it's time to see your physician and a specialist about these concerns. Reducing stress and sleeping better can give you a better perspective on your life. Testosterone levels can be tested and effective treatments are available. Also focus on things that you can do, like getting exercise, eating right, and avoiding toxins like tobacco, alcohol, etc.

Call crisis line now: Of people who are basically physically intact (and you are, or can soon be) who have attempted suicide and failed 99% are very glad one year later that they failed. That is ninety-nine percent likely that you are better off alive. You're also at the age where escaping a difficult home situation is fairly easy and the call is likely to help as well.