Lost me dad 3yrs ago 1st time properly berieving after constant work n alcohol. Now struggling to control emotions. Anyone know how to control them?

Grief reaction. I'm sorry to hear about your loss. As i'm sure you know, alcohol is not the best solution for dealing w/grief. Rather than struggle to control your emotions, why not talk to your family? Friends? Church? Go see your family doctor. S/he can offer your options including medication if you desire. Your insurance company can offer your psychiatric options. Also search online for grief support groups.