Attempted suicide by od on prazosin, fentanyl, nitro, clonidin, etc. I have gastroparesis, but vomiting&pain increased w/red-brn urine&back pain?

Go to ER. Red-brown urine with back pain could mean you blood cell are breaking down and clogging your kidneys. You could get kidney failure and wind up on dialysis.
Suicidal ideation . Please call 911, a friend or relative who can help you now. Depression can be treated successfully with proper medical care. We all go through difficult situations in life that make us feel very sad and down. We all have been there; you are not alone. Call for help now. I know you will feel better.