Fear of being hated by everyone, intense need to leave the area for fear of annoying everyone by being there?

It can get better. . What a difficult situation to be in. Your outlook about both yourself & others can become more reality based. Paranoia is such a lonely & painful state of mind. There is hope. Were you diagnosed w depression, anxiety & paranoia by a mental health provider? Encourage you to work with a psychologist who provides cognitive behavioral therapy. Are you seeing a psychiatrist now for medications? There.
See a MD/psy . When fears and anxieties impair your life it is time to see an md/psychologist. Medication may be needed. Don't wait.