Do you want to die?
Terrible idea. Please forgive my frankness.
You're smart enough to have made at least an effort at recovery. You're smart enough to have found HealthTap and framed a question. I bet that somebody loves you. I'm a pathologist. The stories are true. Returning to meth will ruin your heart; otherwise meth heads do rip off their flesh as they are dying of it. Spare yourself and choose a better life.