What can I do to start getting my life back? I'm trapped in my body who does not like me. I feel Like I'm decades older and I'm only 35. New dx autoimmune dz

Counselling. Your message sounds depressing and I would urge you to seek psychologic or psychiatric counselling ASAP. Have an autoimmune dz is not the end of the world since most can be treated quite effectively. If you have suicidal thoughts, call the suicide hotline immediately.