Abnormal pap smear 2 yrs ago and since then I haven't seen a doc, I lost my medicare and haven't seen a doctor since could this be terminal unattended?

Not usually. Abnormal pap smears are common, but does not mean they should not be repeated. Even with no insurance look for charity systems in your state and get one yearly. The grade of dysplasia and how abnormal makes a difference and doctor will treat the cervix to get rid of the high grade dysplasia as these can be a risk for turning into cervical cancer. So you can't just forget about it.