Why do I feel as if I no longer want to live?

Depression. Can't tell for sure from this email alone, but this should be taken very seriously. Your complaint should be taken as seriously as someone complaining of chest pain or symptoms of a stroke. If you feel suicidal please consider goin to your local er where they can help work you up. You are not alone and this is not simply the "blues". Call your medical doctor or psychiatrist if you have one!