Do I have to take an anti-depressant for panic attacks? I hate the way I feel on them, such bad side effects. I have tried many diff kinds. Hated them

Find a psychologist. Or counselor/therapist who treats anxiety. The most effective treatments are relaxation training (sometimes with the aid of biofeedback -- www.Bcia.Org or www.Aapb.Org) plus cognitive therapy that includes gradual exposure to anxiety-producing situations in imagination and real life. You don't have to take antidepressants if you work hard in therapy.