Its a nasty battle for me tto get through every day. Hysterical wars of extreme emotion highs and lows changing by the minute, or the trigger. Can I ever be normal? Or should I just die?

Mental Health. What you describe is normal for some people who have various types of mental illness - anxiety, depression bipolar disorder type 1 or 2, or hormones that need adjusting. Given that they are extreme swings, you would best treated by a psychiatrist. Medication to restore chemical brain balance can give you access to a life without the super highs and super lows of your emotions. Life is worth it!