It is not fair, you hate it, you hate the extra work, you hate the restrictions,you hate that people know, and everything else.
But get used to it. If you don't grow up fast and accept it you can do permanent harm to your body & it will be nobodies fault but your own.Find an unrelated therapist
to work on your feelings & get off the "why me" train of self pity. You can have a good life.