Lack of pleasure and enjoyment in life, and antidepressants are keeping me stable/need for life?

Talk to your doc! Antidepressants are supposed to help improve your (depressed) mood. However, some may also blunt your ability to enjoy life, although this might also be construed as inadequately treated depression. Regardless, the key is to talk to your doc, the one who made the diagnosis & wrote your prescription. Tell him/her what's going on so that s/he can decide to either incr your dose or switch your med.