Do ssris give older adults suicidal thoughts? And does it make anxiety worse the first few weeks? This is why I'm afraid to mention a ssri to dr.

SSRI. No medication "gives" suicidal thoughts. People taking SSRI's are often depressed and suicidal. Anxiety levels may change on SSRI medications, but there are SSRI's that are not typically associated with heightened anxiety, some are actually associated with lowering anxiety like Paxil (paroxetine).