With an alcoholic history, why would I feel naucious after drinking?

Nauseous alcoholic. It could be due to alcohol-induced pancreatitis, acid reflux, alcoholic gastritis or alcoholic liver disease. It's best to stop drinking and go see your doctor for evaluation and management.
Self- destructive... I agree with dr. Abe. If you are alcoholic - then alcohol is toxic to you, just like rat poison would be. Wouldn't you expect to develop health problems if you kept eating rat poison?