32 yr f. At 20 yrs had Hodgkins lymphoma n health got worse. I am always having joint pain that is gettin worse. Knees, n hands n hips. I'm to young!

Get a consult. I see you are also under treatment for your moods. Talk with whoever is supervising this about how you can perhaps adjust your attitude. RT, when I was a kid, Hodgkin's was the kiss of death -- always fatal. I'm grateful for the good things that have happened to me, and I want you to discover a way, also. Don't let ideas from darkness prevent you from getting relief from a rheumatologist.