Insomnia, lack of motivation, lack of concentration, lose grip on reality, feel hopless, can't hold a conversation, trouble socializing, lack of emotio?

What are you doing. For treatment now? This lists you as having anxiety - but no more specific diagnosis, treatment or medications are listed. If you aren't getting professional help - please know that you don't need to keep suffering like this. Please see a psychologist for a form of talking therapy. Please see a psychiatrist or your physician for a medical workup to rule out medical causes ; for eval for >.