I suffer from depression and anxiety, last time I tried medication, I attempted suicide. I want help but I am to scared to keep searching. Any advice?

You must find a way. If you attempted suicide while on medication, the medication may not have been the right one for you. A small % of people become more depressed on some medications. Consult with a psychiatrist and tell them what happened and which medication you were on. Also the combination of psychotherapy and medication has been found to be the most beneficial for depression. Don't give up get help.