Get help. Call 911. Call your family doctor. Call the national suicide hotline. Call your county's crisis line. There are caring, concerned professionals ready to be of assistance. If the phone calling seems too hard, then get yourself to the local hospital.
Call 911. If you are having serious thoughts about ending your life you should call 911 or go to your nearest emergency room. If there are people living with you or nearby with whom you feel safe, please stay with them until you get help.