Getting checked out for endometritis. Sick and sad, want to take my baby home. Helo?

Be strong. I am sorry you apparently feel discouraged and confused. Pursue a thorough assessment. You will find options and can then address the specific problem. As soon as you can recover from your initial reaction, be resilient and proactive. And get good help -- both from persons in your circle, and from professionals -- it's out there for you.