Normal is only a. Cycle on the washing machine. Happiness and joy do not come from life being what you always wanted, it comes from wanting what you have and seeing that it could be much worse. Having sufficient income to procure a place for you and your child, food on the table, and clothes on your back is a success. You have your health, and your child's. ..See the problems others have on this site: you r nrml!
Yes and no! Having a child without a true father is devastating to the child in terms of future education, drug use, etc. You have made a seriously difficult choice, and I wish you the best. It can be overcome if you make the right choices ahead of you.